Finally.

Things are starting to look up for once.
My mom finally signed the consent paper to give primary custody over to my dad.
This is a really good thing. Here at my moms? This is an all around bad place for me to be. I don't really wanna type all of this out because I hate typing blocks of text on my iPod. Or rather, iPod two. My first one died. Is me falling on some stairs. -__-
It's gonna be hard leaving everyone, but it needs to happen. Both my dad and I are afraid that if I stay here a prolonged period of time I might start cutting again to get some control in my life.
And it's not like I'm gonna forget everyone, I have momentous and stuff, like the playbills that we sign on closing night of the plays, my homecoming ticket, my Otakon badges from 2010 and 2011.
And this:

It's a pocket watch on a chain see?

It goes down to a few inches over my belly button. Aka. It's long.

Yes that is a happy bunny shirt. :3

The watch/ necklace something that Vic got me last Otakon. I have a fascination with pocket watches. I love them. I don't get why more people don't like them. They're awesome.
I asked for it back do I could have something to remember him by. I'm not going to let someone who was that important to me just fade away from my memory. He helped me so much, with so many things. Im not gonna let myself forget him.

Well that's all for tonight I guess.

When You Feel So Tired But You Can't Sleep....

I just have so much going on and I'm thinking about too much to be able to peacefully fall asleep....
I mean, A lot had happened this week. So bear with me, cause this is gonna be one long post.

First off, I'm hopelessly confused about everything. And I mean everything.
I was supposed to be moving up to my dad's house sometime in the next few weeks but my mother (going back on her word) refuses to sign the papers.
I have no clue when I'm moving now, so I'm not going to be in the musical which I really had my heart set on doing... it would've been my first musical with my Drama Family...

I fell down concrete stairs yesterday because my foot went out from under me -__- My ass is probably bruised on the right side and I have some small abrasions on the back of my ankle. And my whole right leg is sore as fuck.

I also want to be friends with Vic again. I still trust him, hell I'd trust him with my life. I know him, and I know he's as trustworthy as anyone can be today. I mean, he's the only person in this world who has physically been there to stop me from cutting. He's seen me at my best, my worst, and my most vulnerable in every sense of the word. He knows how I get, and how to deal with me when everyone else is clueless. He knows the fragility that I hid behind a mask, and he knows what I have to deal with at home and what an impact it has on me. There were days when I swore he knew me better than I knew me.

How can I not trust someone who knows me inside and out?
And how can I not want to trust someone I know so well, and that I care about?
How can I not talk to someone who was a huge part of my life for a long time?
How can I not want to have some sort of connection, no matter how small, so someone like that?

You came and you took this heart and set it free

Dear god I haven't touched this thing for a month or so O.o

And believe you me, there's has been stuff happening in my real life, I just haven't wanted to talk about it that much on here.

So I have a new boyfriend. We've only been going out since the 26th but I feel like it's already been months. He's just been so up front and honest with me. It's mind boggling. But I think that's my favorite thing about him. Not that many people have been that honest with me. He literally told me his deepest secret. (I'm not putting it up here obviously).

He gave me a ring today. I was so excited. It's meant to be an engagement ring, but I'm treating it as a promies ring until I'm eighteen. I'm not completely sure that we will get married though. I'm moving up to my dads house (yes the one I made reference to in the slenderblog xD) on the 18th. I told him that if he can deal with the distance and me not seeing him a lot then I will gladly marry him.

And honestly? I don't think is want to be with anyone else, because I haven't met anyone so honest in my entire life.

I'll edit this and put the picture of us and the ring on here later.

Right now I want to either take a nap or go outside. It's frigging 68 degrees outside. Maryland weather, y u so bipolar?

Edit:

Here's the ring:

And here's us.

RANDOM: I actually wore my hair up most of today :P